I wrote this last night because I couldn't sleep. I'm not sending it to my WBF, but I thought I would post it on here. It's just what I was thinking about last night when I couldn't sleep and was having a hard night....
YOU
You never considered me when you decided to cheat.
You never considered the damage it would cause.
You never considered the pain it would cause me.
You never thought about the consequences of your actions.
You never thought about how your betrayal would affect me.
You never thought about how your decisions could cause you to lose me.
You never considered the hurt your actions would cause.
You never considered that your actions would break my heart.
You never considered the future.
You never considered us when you decided to cheat.
I could go on and on, but really all it boils down to is that you never considered me or my feelings.
You never considered or thought about any of those things because in the end the only thing that mattered to you was YOU!
And because of that you will never know or understand:
The amount pain you caused me.
What it feel s like to have someone you trust more than anything in the world break that trust.
What it feels like to constantly worry and wonder.
What it feel s like to feel the need to check someone else’s electronics.
What it feels like to be stuck in limbo trying to figure out what the best thing to do is.
You will never understand the kind of hurt and pain I have gone through.
You will never understand how many tears I have cried.
You will never understand how lonely I have felt.
You will never understand how I felt laying on the bathroom floor hysterically crying.
You will never understand how it feels to still love someone who has so deeply hurt and betrayed you.
You will never understand how hard this has been for me.
You will never understand how hurtful it is to have someone tell you that they think you should be over it by now.
You will never understand what it is like to be deeply depressed and in a world in pain all caused by someone else’s selfish actions.
You will never understand what it feels like to have a broken heart like mine and you will never understand how hard it is to put all the broken pieces back together.
[This message edited by megs56 at 7:16 PM, November 27th (Wednesday)]