WW would tell me how she loved the attention and excitement of the A. Our marriage has certainly changed and we are arguably doing very well. The times we share together are terrific. But lately I can't help feel that I'm only giving WW what she got from the A.m.
I know its sounds messed up. But I feel like a second string quarter back that only got put into the game because the starter got injured.
I would know that after 10 months of work, reflection, de-fogging, growth and communication, we would not share the same belief in love, relationships or family, and I would walk away with my head held high. I sometimes push this subject too far and am almost trying to provoke this response from him so that I know I am not being a fool in this relationship. When I feel good, I start to fear that I'm being na´ve or accepting too much shit from my fWH by even staying here. Then we talk it out, I talk to my IC, and I calm down. I put the AP down and keep walking down the road of my marriage without her, and goddamit that feels better!
The BS represents a life of truth.