Am I really angry at myself for being such an immature, selfish twit in the past? Or am I just a judgmental hypocrite hater?
Only you know the answer to that question LLL. Have you dealt with your past? Have you been digging into yourself?
I remember having a vehement anger and even hatred for cheaters. Oh lookie. Pot, meet kettle.
When my world blew up, the focus shifted from everyone else's crap, to my own. Why did I do it, how did I get here, how do I fix it. Once I started digging in, I realized more and more how terribly broken and lost I was.
When I see active cheaters now? I feel pity. They're a walking/talking Black Hole. They're lost and don't even know it. They're running from themselves and using anyone or anything to fill that Black Hole within them. It's sad.