Tried googling Women in Transition, came up with some battered women houses in my area. Not what I need. :)
I'm making some lists, trying to sort things, but each one kind of layers on the others, KWIM? Can't fix one without fixing the other, if I change this, that falls apart, etc. Trying to find the exit.
Crescita, if you or anyone can solve anything, I'd take it.
Stressors: Two teens, both with attitudes right now, one diagnosed with panic disorder. Used up my benefits for this year for IC for her. Got a diagnosis, on waiting list for hospital IC for her (Free) but it's been 9 months and they won't return my calls or my Dr office calls, they are so overloaded. Tried to talk to XH about the fact that she needs more IC, but I have NO cash at the moment, he won't pay his half if I don't pay my half. Felt like smacking him. How many things have a paid for over the past 4 years to make sure my kids have what they need when he "couldn't afford it"? Anyway, he doesn't think IC is the answer, or she needs help for PD. He thinks she just needs to be told what to do. Umm, yeah, sure. Son is applying to colleges, doesn't know what he wants, is being a rude turd anytime to talk to him lately. So, I live with two people that are treating me like crap, like a useless person that they don't want to associate with, who bugs them about homework and what they are doing.
My mom has Hodgekins. Chemo is going well, but it's still stressful. I know you can't fix that one.
My house is a mess. I hate my house. I can't afford my house. I would love to move. I can't, more or less. If I sell, I will HAVE to move out of town in order to afford anything. I can keep DD at the same high school she is at now (I work there too) but for pete's sake, we have a 7 min drive now, and she can't get ready in time. How the heck would it work with a 30-60 min drive? Yes, I know, just leave without her....but she is almost failing her first period class, and hates it. I know she just wouldn't bother to get there for it. Not helpful. Next semester she has another class she hates 1st period.
Off track. Sorry. In order to sell, I need to clean, declutter, and fix some MAJOR things. I have no money to fix these things. Like, My tub is leaving continuously, the tub is 40 years old, the walls in the shower/tub are cracked and breaking. I must fix this. Talked to bathfitter, around 3500. They have financing, but I really don't need another monthly expense.
No matter how hard I work at cleaning or decluttering, nothing seems to get better. I know that seems like a cop out, but I honestly can't get a handle on anything lately. I can clean the counters, do all the dishes, but everything in the cupboards is ready to fall out. Everything destroyed again within a day. Wash the floors, stupid dog tracks mud back in. Try to file some paperwork, the pile isn't going down. More comes in to take it's place.
Love my job. Have a college diploma. Unfortunately, I am unemployed (like, laid off, on unemployment) 2 months in the summer, 2 weeks at Christmas, and 1 week in March. My pay going up and down like a toilet seat isn't helping. I did have a second job, but couldn't keep it up...too stressful. Because I quit that, I got turned down for unemployment for being laid off from the first job, so now i'm in a worse place moneywise than I was before I took the second job. I feel like I was punished for trying to dig myself out of my hole. Because they turned me down the summer, I will now have Christmas and March be my waiting period, and receive no money from unemployment until summer...so since I'm already at the end of my rope, I'm unsure how to pay bills in January other than taking more out of my LOC to do so. If I get a second job again, I screw up my unemployment again. I can go back to officiating my sport next summer to make more cash....but I need to get there first.
I use to help others make their budgets. I know how. I just can't seem to get there. XH only pays expenses for the kids "when he has the money" Like, duh...not everything can wait until you have cash. They NEED clothes, which he is suppose to buy them half, but he thinks buying one of them boots for winter is doing his share, when I have bought both sweaters, coats, pants, etc. They NEED to be clothed for petes sake.
Original plan was I bought him out of the house, I keep it, I stay here until the kids graduate, then I downsize into something I can afford and look after (smaller). Well, this place is 45ish years old and needs repairs I can't afford now, and I can't fix myself. Dad getting too old, also busy with mom and her cancer.
Gah. Now I just seem like an unorganized lazy person.