2011 was the year that my depression worsened and worsened, until I wanted to die.
2012 was the year that I followed through on that: I tried to kill myself, and spent a week (including my 42nd birthday), in the psych ward. Ten months later, was when I found out The Princess was a lying, cheating whore. I spent the next three months after that trying to be a one-person reconciling team. We all know how those work out.
2013 was the year when I decided I would put up with no more. I moved out, and spent the next three months in tears. I ended up having to go to the food bank once.
That's quite enough of that horseshit.
Five days into 2014, I have a solo gig - just me and my instruments on stage for an hour. That's a good fucking start to my comeback year. Here's what else I want to make happen in my comeback year:
- I want a job. Self-employment is cool when you're married to someone with a steady income, but too nerve-wracking for this solo life. I am going to upgrade my programming skills and get a job.
- I will learn to relax. Once I have the relative security of being an employee, I will learn to keep my off-hours as time that I don't think about work constantly.
- I will get MORE gigs. My musical skills are improving, and I am getting to be known on the local folk scene. Now that I have the better mousetrap, I just need to let people know about it, so they will beat a path to my door.
- I will continue writing. My blovel is going strong, and slowly building a following. I need to keep the momentum by continuing to produce quality content. This is fun shit, so I just need to keep doing a little research at a time; once I've done the research, the writing is practically effortless.
- I will pay off all my debts, and not buy more things on credit. This will free me up to start contributing to a pension fund in 2015.
- I will have money to take my kids on a nice three-day shopping trip in the summer. All the army surplus and music stores we can find in the city of our choice (I have the coolest kids ever).
- I will continue to detach from the Princess (and should be divorced about halfway through the year). While pushing for a new relationship isn't a priority, I will start keeping my eyes open for real live dating opportunities (NOT online!). If I meet someone who looks like she might be nice, I will ask her out, and proceed cautiously.
That will make 2014 a fantastic year. Gotta make this happen so that you're not listening to me complain about the same shit next year at this time!
Anyone else up for a comeback year?
[This message edited by pass at 7:13 PM, December 8th (Sunday)]