I'm feeling extremly blue at the moment
Your husband is carrying on an affair, in your face.
He has completely disregarded you and your feelings.
I think blue is an understatement.
I think traumatized, abused , shocked, scarred and scared, angry, hurt , broken also come to mind.
It's ok. It's alright to no be ok when the one person you have counted on has thrown you to the wolves.
Start taking care of you, talk it through in IC and begin to detach.
He is watching you bleed out on the floor.
Slowly take back your strength and yourself.
(((hugs))) it's ok to hurt, feel it.
You WILL be ok, come and talk when you need to. Most important, please take care of you right now.