Me - BS 58
I'm reeling a little bit today and could really use some advice. We are 28 months past Dday. Things are good between us and my H has been everything I have wanted and asked for.
I did not sleep well last night...dog had me up...then couldn't sleep. That is never good for me and of course I had some upsetting thoughts while trying for over 2 hours to get back to sleep. Luckily I got to sleep in (snow day at my work) so it could have been worse.
Around 10 a.m. I sent my H a text with a picture of myself ; I would normally hear right back after he gets one of those pictures...lol. Nothing...tried his desk phone...nothing....tried his work phone...nothing. I left the house and did some running around. I heard back from him after about 2 hours. By this time I was a freaking mess. This alone is so upsetting to me after such a long time. Does that ever go away??? When I did talk to him, he continued to try to soothe me and asking if I was OK. He said he was across the street at another office and ended up talking to a male friend at his desk.
In my heart I know that he is no longer talking to her at all. I am probably just as upset at myself for the major reaction as him for forgetting to have a phone with him.
I don't even know what I am asking....just needed to vent a little and see if others have had similar situations even this far out. What do you work on to make it better. I have not had any IC through this ordeal. Does it sound like I should. The good times have been fantastic...so close to each other right now. But wham...this sucks!!
H - WS 60/very remorseful and supportive
discovered 4 month long EA
R - slow and steady but very optimistic