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Lostandpregnant posted 12/10/2013 19:01 PM

I had to address the birth. I've been dreading it..but I decided I had to get it over with.

It was the hardest email I've ever written in my life, telling him that I do not want him there.

I should be facing this with my partner by my side.

But I'm not.

I'm just sad right now. This should have been a beautiful wonderful moment it will be me, alone.

Lostandpregnant posted 12/10/2013 19:03 PM

And no, I'm not going to be communicating with him, or anything of the sort, or even reading if there is a response.
But I had to do this for the closure for myself, to face it and close the door on it.

HardenMyHeart posted 12/10/2013 19:15 PM


GotPlayed posted 12/10/2013 19:21 PM


Chin up, you'll be there with your little baby. Who loves you. And that's all that matters.

The moment will be beautiful regardless, particularly as your little one grows proud and strong.

Look at the future and the happiness your baby will bring you, not at the past.

painfulpast posted 12/10/2013 19:29 PM

Oh, L&P,

We'll all be there with you in spirit. Is there any family that can go with you?

Jules1111 posted 12/10/2013 19:30 PM


Lostandpregnant posted 12/10/2013 19:49 PM

My friend from colorado will try to fly in. With the unpredictable nature of birth, we'll have to see if it works out. I need to mentally prepare to do it alone.

brkn_heartd posted 12/10/2013 20:46 PM

Sending you support.

Holly-Isis posted 12/10/2013 21:01 PM

I think you've made a good choice. He's been abusive in so many ways, before the A and even now. You don't need to be around that. Your babies dont need to be around it.

LonelySilhouette posted 12/10/2013 22:47 PM

With all due respect, I don't think you should have contacted him about the impending birth at all. It's not like he doesn't know it's coming, and you didn't say he asked about being there. Did he ask? I mean, I feel terrible for what you're going through but really, stop contacting him. He's not worth it.

I know it's not the same but didn't you say you have a midwife? You won't be alone. At least you'll have her.

Broken1Again posted 12/10/2013 23:59 PM

I know this is no consolation but many women have gone through it alone. Back in the day husband weren't allowed in the room so try and just think that way if you have to to get you through this very emotional time. This is his moment to live to regret. Not yours.

I can only almost imAgine what you are going through as my H almost wasn't there for the birth of our 2nd as he abandoned us for some OW. This will not be an easy thing to do but please know that you have an online community who will cyberly be in the waiting room waiting to hear how you're doing and how the babies are doing.

Lostandpregnant posted 12/11/2013 07:41 AM

Yes, he did ask to be there.

whichwaysup posted 12/11/2013 08:01 AM

Well, I guess the fact that he asked to be there shows he stil has some sort of desire to be a father (although he doesn't seem to show the same concern for his other 5 children often). Regardless, if he cared that much he would be there for you now, not globe trotting w/ OW.
I personally feel the same about this subject as I do about giving my WH any space/ freedom right now. These WS's had it all at one point, but they ruined it. They made choices that did not show consideration for us & they do not deserve it in return.
Love & Light

Althea posted 12/11/2013 08:19 AM

(((Lostandpregnant))) I'm so sorry. Pregnancy is such a vulnerable time, but this on top isn't fair. That being said, as someone who had a less than supportive partner at the birth of my second daughter, you would feel every bit as alone even if he was there. Plus, you would have had the added bonus of all of the pain just looking at his face would bring. I had my youngest a few months ago and brought a digital picture frame full of photos of my other kids. It was great. I told stories about them to the midwives and nurses in between contractions. Can you afford a doula? Or maybe ask your midwife if there is one she can recommend who might help you pro bono? Doula's are incredible emotional support. I'm sorry you are going through this, but it will be better without him there.

sad12008 posted 12/11/2013 08:23 AM


Every last bit of infidelity is painful, so it seems a dreadful understatement and redundant to say it really hurts when the betrayal is compounded by things that are supposed to be truly special moments in life....but it does really hurt. Turns the knife and then throws salt into the wound.

My fWH was in a full-fledged A at the time of my 2nd child's birth, though I didn't know it at the time. I did, however, know I was miserable, he was and had been distant, cold, uncaring, and mean for too much of the time for months on end, to the point where I was seriously thinking about leaving him. (That pesky being-hugely-pregnant thing was making me pause, since I didn't expect much luck interviewing looking as I did.)

I hope you do indeed have a good midwife, Lap! Mine was the caring calm in the storm. I seem to recall us actually having a laugh about then-WH during labor. A good midwife and/or a good friend beats a cheating husband any day.

I hope there's a special place in hell for men who run out on their pregnant wives, and for the women who knowingly cavort with the husbands of pregnant women.

Sending you strength and a big hug!!

BrighterFuture posted 12/11/2013 09:43 AM

You made the best choice. His presence would have been a source of pain anyways. I did it and you can too. Once you're done you'll breathe a sigh of relief for having gone through it and being so strong. Feel free to PM me if you need encouragement at anytime. You can do it!

Lostandpregnant posted 12/11/2013 10:00 AM

Thank you all <3
I can't even go there in my mind about the OW..what a POS she must be to be able to do this to someone seems extra vile and disgusting to me.

I hope her life is horrific and she feels my pain tenfold.

Yeah, I said it.

tushnurse posted 12/11/2013 13:16 PM

L&P please look into getting a Doula.
Being pregnant and giving birth is an adventure to begin with, and even though you have done it before, you haven't had twins.

You really do need someone there for you....Just you, not the babies. Not your physical being, but someone to provide support mentally, and be a source of strength for you.

Not sure what the story is or availability in Canada, so please take some time to look into this option.

(((and strength)))

Lola7 posted 12/11/2013 13:33 PM

Good for you not having him there. You want this to be a special moment, not ruined by his stupid face. You can do this. ((hugs))

izzybear7 posted 12/11/2013 13:35 PM

just posted my first post. my husband left me when i was 7 months, i know exaclty what you mean...its supposed to be the happiest time of your life and they stole that from us. hang in there. thinking of you

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