This is the hall of mirrors. Where you will face yourself. Buckle up.
The only thing bad about sleeping is dreaming. And I can't make it stop.
I remember feeling this way. You would think that sleep would be welcoming. Only it wasn't. And I couldn't do anything to control my dreams.
When you (WS) ended the affair or whatever, did you start dreaming of the OP?
For me, they weren't "dreams", they were nightmares. Yes, I had them. Frequently at first. But as I worked on myself and focused on my marriage and healing more, they came less and less.
I still have nightmares with AP in them every blue moon. But it's not a fond thing.
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - J. Wayne