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lostandhopless posted 12/13/2013 12:11 PM

Well I know it's only been a short time since I started this "wonderful" journey to the center of hell. I don't believe that the devil knows I was here yet, so I'm gonna put it to the boards and get myself outa here. I am pushing the D forward as fast as I can. After crying for the last 3 weeks I have spent the whole time reflecting on the last 8 years.
What I have seen is a very selfish WW that only cared about what I could give her without any reciprocation. So I am deciding that she is not worth letting myself go through this.
I am responsible for my own happiness, not her. She is a cancerous tumor that needs to be cut out!!!!!!
I am so much better than someone who would do this and I refuse to sit and dwell on it and be miserable, that just empowers her. I am a strong, caring, considerate, dedicated, hardworking person who deserve so much better than the people who did this to me.
So I am still crying as I write this, But they are now tears of joy because I don't even hate them, just want nothing to do with them. Let me be is all I ask.
"A NEW YEAR IS A GOOD REASON TO LEAVE SOME PEOPLE IN THE OLD ONE"
I believe that it is time for me to move over to "new beginnings" and stop feeling sorry for myself. I control my life not them.
I may be jumping the gun here. I may be back but "better to try and fail than never try at all"!!!

peoplepleaser posted 12/13/2013 12:28 PM

Good luck to you. I hope that you get what you need to move on in the direction that suits you best.

Lola88 posted 12/13/2013 15:06 PM

Do they realise the damage they cause? I'm not making excuses but can not imagine myself putting anyone in the position they put us in. Are they a breed apart or are we?

It is the centre of hell and it crosses all boundaries - love, hugs and strength to you x

lostandhopless posted 12/13/2013 16:14 PM

My thoughts are this, they are so self centered that they just don't care as long as they get their way.....

Skan posted 12/13/2013 18:12 PM

Hey, if you're sure this is what you want, then go for it. She killed the marriage when she betrayed you, and I cannot blame you one bit for deciding not to keep poking the stinking remains, especially with a WW that doesn't give a damn.

I would suggest that you might want to pop over into the Separation & Divorce forum and introduce yourself. There's an equally great group of people there with experience that will definitely be of help to you.

brkn_heartd posted 12/13/2013 18:21 PM

This is a deal breaker for some. I don't think they do realize the permanent damage that is caused. I hope all goes well for you and HAPPY NEW YEAR!