I've already spent more than several hours re-reading threads from when I joined SI as inconnu back in 2009. That was right after my 3rd d-day, btw. I had found the secret cell phone which confirmed ex was still cheating.
I got to see the posts I made when ex walked out on me and the kids, the ones I posted when I filed for divorce, and of course the ones from the 2009 Christmas from hell. I've only made it through the beginning of 2010, and except for the very beginning of my posts, I've been randomly reading threads.
I expected it to be triggery, and sad, but it wasn't.
Instead, what I could really see is how far I've come since then. And omg, the love and support I've received from both past and present SIers...there aren't words to adequately describe it. But god, my heart and soul are so filled with positive energy right now. It's just amazing.
SI is amazing. Thank you, all.
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
"Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you."
I too have read through my first posts I was astonished at how clear the situation is to me now when back then I was so deep in the BS fog I didn't know which was was up.
WH says marriage is over: May 15, 2009.
EA#2 July 20, 2009. Legally sep: Aug 16, 2009. DIVORCED!!!! Signed Nov 23, final Dec 24, 2010, adultery listed.
We've come a long way!
Even if you hadn't upgraded, we could have told you you've come a long way, baby.