I can't even feel anything. I can't process what he has told me. I can't believe I have to rewrite my history AGAIN! I've had so many days like today - it's just beyond cruel. The last maybe 7 times he's done this - I haven't felt it. I packaged it up into boxes in my head to deal with later. I figured if we get divorced it can be lumped into one big box of he betrayed me - I can just process that and not all the details. So - I can't really feel today. My chest is heavy as heck though. I have been shaking off and on. 15 months into this nightmare. This shouldn't have ever happened in the first place - not giving me my correct history shouldn't have taken this long. It shouldn't have taken me kicking him out to get it.
I have to bake Christmas cookies with my daughter and make her final birthday treat to share at elementary school tomorrow. How do I do that exactly?
Divorce final 2/10/14.
Throw me to the wolves and I'll return leading the pack.
If this isn't what I consider soulmate crap, I don't know what is.
I am so, so sorry. You don't deserve this ongoing torment.
Sending you strength.
The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them.”
― Ernest Hemingway
You've got tremendous strength. You'll figure out how you want to get through this. Have faith in yourself.