Nrrgghhh! I called my oldest brother last night and told him. Of course reaction is shock, I understand that.
I got things like, 'but xxxxx (My SIL) has taken holiday on such a date so we can come and see you, you know how difficult it is for her to get holiday'
'oh I suppose this means we won't see the children very often then, just like the others from previous marriage'
'can't you just not confront and both go to relate and sort out the problems?'
Supportive not! Shocked yes, understood. I could have done with a 'oh shit, really sorry, is there anything we can do to help' but that didn't happen.
Maybe I am a selfish pig and I just expect too much and want too much. Maybe I should just accept everything, clearly after two marriages and a LTR where they are all going the same way then I'm the common factor and clearly just broken and fucked up. I must be damaged and I'm just pretending to be okay. I mean why have I put up with knowing for sure for 9 weeks and not even been able to confront or shout or get angry? How fucked up must I be...4 children over the years, never seeing any of them grow up and left carrying anger and pain for so many years just to have another fucked up relationship....
Sorry, I'm feeling so unloved, lonely and fed up. I'd take wgf hugs because its the best I'll get. Wish I had a friggin heart attack or something to take me away from all this crap
