Incredibly so. I'm not complaining, not whining. It's just the fact of the matter. I've given her plenty of reason to be. Not much has gone right to otherwise boost her spirits.
I haven't been consistent. I've hurt her by doing things she explicitly tells me hurt her.
Second antiversary is this Sunday. She will have her period just to put that extra special touch on the day. She will likely be bleeding through Christmas.
This past Thanksgiving I told her that we could go to her bother's house instead of spending the day with my family. Of course they have now decided to start spending Thanksgiving with HIS SIL in D.C. So all of her family is gone and she was left here with just me.
Now we used to go to her brother's beach house for NYE, but this year, of course, they decided to fly out to California to be with their parents. The same brother who would ridicule TCD about how she was acting like a big baby when her parents decided to leave, because she was sad and didn't want t them to go. Yeah, it's real easy to be so bold when you make 250k a year, have plenty of time off and can afford to wing your family off on a whim. So they will be gone from Christmas through New Year's Day.
So now TCD is left here with just me and my family for the holidays. I am who I am, I did what I did. My family has been anything but supportive of her. I made the horrible choice of telling my mom about the A without discussing with TCD, and it was a mistake right from the first minute. I asked my mom to apologize to TCD for some of the things she said and her passive aggressive behaviors about the whole thing, and her "apology" was blame-shifting and condescending, really just making things worse. These are the people who she gets to "celebrate" Christmas with.
I told her we could skip Christmas Eve with my family, but she doesn't want to take the kids away from my family.
The holidays are going to suck. There's no doubt about it. They obviously suck a whole lot worse for her. I fucked up big. This sucks, and I made it suck. Fuck me... All I want is for there to be joy in her life.