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Of how much progress I've made in the last 5 years.

Yesterday at work we received our bonus (6% of our gross income ) and at first I was just going to deposit it in the bank, not say anything to my H. You know, a surprise, even though he knew it was coming. But, I told him I got it. So yeah, I told him bonuses were in but it crossed my mind to keep the dollar amount to myself, still a little bit of a surprise. Nope, couldn't keep that to myself either. I told him the exact amount.

I've told him every time before this but what's different about this time was I immediately dismissed the idea of keeping the info from him. I even told myself "Nah, you'll tell him." I never seriously considered NOT telling him.

Congrats Clarrissa, it is progress. You adjusted your thought processes and applied transparency on your own.

I immediately dismissed the idea of keeping the info from him.

Sounds as though it is becoming a habit. I can see the value to complete honesty all the time. The fact that you feel good about

Nope, couldn't keep that to myself either.

demonstrates your healing.

Yep, sounds like progress to me. Identifying and changing old, unhealthy thought processes. Good for you!

I *did* want it to be a surprise and it was to some extent, even to me considering I was off work for a couple months early this year (workers comp injury to my wrist). What I had envisioned was dropping the check in the bank and waiting for H to check the balance (which he does more often lately as finances have been a bit tight) and surprising him that way but as it turned out, I told him the first chance I had once I had check in hand. Another benefit was it eased his mind that we could take care of the bills and still have some "mad money".

+1

Very nicely done!

Definitely a good example that shows progress!