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Dyinghere (original poster member #41313) posted at 4:41 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
I did the last 2days for them. I didn't cry, I cooked, I cleaned, I smiled, I sang, I dressed up, took pictures. I served meals and played games. I even laughed. My children had a great Christmas.
Now they are in bed, I took a minute to myself and my heart felt the full force of the pain that I have ignored by sheer force of will for 2 days.
Oh, it hurts. Knowing he said those endearments to her. Knowing he did those things with her.
My heart hurts so much. I am glad Christmas Day is done.
caregiver9000 ( member #28622) posted at 4:45 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
(((hugs)))
Congratulations! You did it!! Be proud of yourself and let the feelings come now that the day is done. Do something kind for yourself and sleep well.
Me: fortysomething, independent, happy,
XH "Stretch" (and Skew!) ;)
two kids, teens. Old enough I am truly NO CONTACT w/ NPD zebraduck
S 5/2010
D 12/2012
jrc1963 ( member #26531) posted at 4:45 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
Me: BSO - 56 Him: FWSO - 79 DS - 23 D-Day - 12-11-09, R - he finally came homeYour life is an Occasion. Rise to it. - Mr. Magorium, "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
Dreamland ( member #40488) posted at 5:35 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
Huggs you are a champ.. I tried the best I could but found myself a little distant.
Huggs to Us Betrayed moms.
Me-BS 50 Him-WH 47, DD17
Together since 1993, Married 19 yrs
DDay 3/12,4/12,7/12 EA-PA OW - 25 single husband chasing bastard whore
lemony.2008 ( member #20125) posted at 5:42 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
((((Dyinghere))))
You're an awesome mom. Your children are very lucky. 
Sending love and peace. More hugs.
Feel the feelings and drop the story. - Pema Chodron
goodbye_virginia ( member #16321) posted at 6:21 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
What a great mom!
Now take some time to decompress...some time for you. Hugs.
Me- BW 38
Him - WH 46 alcoholic
We are attempting R but I still doubt it all sometimes
Divorced as of 09/2018
Nailinmyforehead ( member #38427) posted at 11:03 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
Congrats! You did it!
"Son, you've got the future- shining like a piece of gold, but I swear as we get closer- it looks more like a lump of coal"
karmahappens ( member #35846) posted at 11:41 AM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
The first one is the hardest. Take some time for you going forward.
(((hugs)))
“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”
Anaïs Nin
Me: 45
Him: 47
Dday 8/2007
We have R'd
nowiknow23 ( member #33226) posted at 2:59 PM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
((((dyinghere)))) Be gentle with yourself over the next few days, honey.
You can call me NIK
And never grow a wishbone, daughter, where your backbone ought to be.
― Sarah McMane
Dyinghere (original poster member #41313) posted at 4:38 PM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
(((((((Hugs)))))))))) back to all of you.
We are all stronger than we used to be.
Peace.
ziganska ( member #41690) posted at 6:11 PM on Thursday, December 26th, 2013
Congrats to you! I am personally looking forward to next Tuesday at midnight because I want to put 2013 behind me forever. May you get through that day too and more to come. You are clearly stronger than you think!
Me: 42
Him: 49
DD: 12/2/2013
Married: 9 years but together for 15
Recovering, Reconciling, Rebuilding, Restoring
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