Everything is going to be hard for a while. Just realize that there's only so much you actually need to do.
What you need to do is breathe, drink water, and eat a little bit. Sleep if you can, rest if you can't sleep.
Spend some time reading in the Healing Library. The link is in the box at the upper left of your screen.
If the chest pains continue, please call 911. Stress can really do a number on our health.
If your chest pains become severe please go to the ER and get that checked out!
Do you believe there has been no contact since your H told you it had stopped? I wouldn't listen to her, she's out for vengeance and trying to destroy you, so keep her blocked. This is between you and your H, so put her out of the picture.
I'm so very sorry (((((((Mar2003)))))))
Hang in. You can and will get through this. You did before and you are even stronger now. This is a chance to decide what YOU want.
I know that feeling... the one of having your heart ripped out and your being so off balance that things will never be the same. The heart, I have heard, can literally break. I think mine did too.
If you feel you don't have all the answers to your questions then start to write them down. Ask for a timeline to get some perspective. Don't let him off the hook for his actions. He did this and he needs to be truthful and responsible for what he has done.
Hang in there... it will get better... just takes A LOT of time and hard work for both of you.