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Dream 1. Trying to get out of a church while a tiger prowled outside. Church was half flooded, like inside a river. I used rope to grab the tiger and water skied using the angry tiger as propulsion. Didn't work and had to run back and hide at the church; frantically closing all the heavy doors. Tiger stayed outside. Dream gets weirder, always about ways for me to escape, then faded.

Dream 2.

We were as a group to a reunion. She brought him. Sat down and made him sit right next to me (WW, OM, me). I could feel the asshole's hip next to mine while I kept as far as possible in my own section of the couch. He kept making comment about everything I said while I kept trying to pretend he wasn't there. I was so upset.

Then at some point WW had the gall to ask me a money related question about a deposit. Because she needed money. I got upset, got up, went to help a music student regarding his teacher not having shown up to class.

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It has been probably five years since I've remembered a dream. This vividly, maybe 10 years.

So now it's 2:38am and I'm wide awake.

Dreams were common for me at first. I don't know how to interpret them so I have no idea what your dreams mean. I hate those weird dreams where you wake up and wonder WTH?

I had a very vivid dream about my WH leaving me a long, long time after dday 1. It was so vivid that I woke him up and was mad at him. I wanted to hit him.

I think our minds get overloaded with stress.

Yep. Lots of stress on this end, of all types right now. And this was vivid. Smells, touch, feeling of wetness on the first dream, absolutely everything. Like I was there. Even the tiger stuff.

Ever since D-Day Nov 5th I have been waking up at 2AM unprompted in a cold sweat, and having a hard time getting back to sleep. Since my kid with Autism wakes up at 4 about half the time what that means is that I end up sleeping about 2 uninterrupted hours per night (until I finally left the house just on the 23rd, I couldn't go to bed before midnight because my kid takes a midnight medicine that I administer).

Today I woke up at that same time, remembering those two dreams this time. So I guess I may have been having nightmares this whole time, just nothing I can remember until now, when it's piled up.

At some point this stops, right?

I had really vivid nightmares at first too. Probably had them for 8-10 months after dday. I've only had one the I remember since the 12 month mark. So, for me, they have faded.

One of my first nightmares (recurring) had a tiger (who I just knew was OW2). A friend of mine who interprets dreams said that tigers are usually representative of sexual prowess - especially in women. It wasn't want I wanted to hear, but did help me start to sort through the thoughts/fears that were at the heart of the dream.