Honestly, I'm still not sure what he was hiding, if anything, but this morning I started thinking about the drives so when he went to work, I got them out and looked at some of them. Sure enough, it was porn. He had promised me not to look at porn again because that was one of his excuses for starting the affair. He can't say that he forgot these were drives just laying around that he forgot because we moved since the affair so he deliberately brought them here. I can't say he's watching them though and I'm sure if I question him about them, he'll say he's not watching them.
Also, my husband is very creative and since our attempts at reconciliation, he makes origami tokens for me. I have found on these flash drives instructions for roses, but the killer is that the date modified on the drive is in 2008. I have never received an origami rose from him at any time, AND even worse, if I never received this who did???? I'm sure he didn't have these files on the drive for no reason. During the A, he told me that it was going on for about 13 months, but his AP told me it was 2-1/2 years. I'm beginning to think she was the one telling me the truth.
I don't want to think the worst of my husband again, but I know this will eat at me. Can anyone think of anyway this could be "innocent"? I know...I'm probably being naïve again.
All of a sudden, I hear him yell to me....what are you looking for and he came running into the room. I told him I wanted the gift for my mom and he said he'd find it.
^^^ His actions should be a big red flag.
He knows things were there and he is/was them from you.
If they had been there from the move and forgotten he wouldn't have come running.
I would be pulling that closet apart.
You know the truth, your gut is screaming, isn't it?
Yes, my gut is screaming, but my heart is looking for a reasonable explanation. I'm not saying that he is cheating, but since he is the one who said that porn is what led to the A, and he agreed not to look at it again, then why keep the flashdrives. I'm thinking of all possible excuses, and I'm sure he'll say why throw away perfectly good drives, but if he was going to do that, why didn't he delete the garbage from them?
This is it. The darkest day. The blackest hour. Chin up, shoulders back. Let's see what we're made of, you and I.
― The Doctor
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Did he or is he seeking help with the porn? If he is addicted simply saying he wont is a herculean task
Ruby, No, he has never sought help for getting over the porn, but I believed he could stop if he truly wanted to because he stopped smoking, drugs, and alcohol cold turkey when he wanted to. (Not all at the same time) He definitely has an addictive personality and I guess substitutes one addiction for another.
My heart is breaking again and my son is home for Christmas so I'm pretending that all is well.
He definitely has an addictive personality and I guess substitutes one addiction for another.
This describes my ws to a T. He went to rehab several yrs ago but would not attend meetings because he said it was,all bullshit, he stopped because he wanted to not because of therapy or AA. He never drank again and stopped cocaine but I have watched him jump from one obsession to the next since he stopped partying. Now his addiction is porn. When he's into something, he's in all the way..so annoying. His other obsessions were not bad ones, just irritating to me because they came before anything else.