We are in a rota with H's family for Xmas dinner, this year was our turn so less than 4 months from Dday I had 12 members of his family-who know nothing about his affair-here.
Long story short his father was taken ill after dinner and ended up in hospital where they have diagnosed a minor heart attack.
Obviously this is awful, I love his parents dearly.
But, I'm really struggling to support him and be positive for him. I thought something like this would make me forget what's happened for a bit or at least distract me from it, but it's really not working like that. My MIL is staying with us and I feel like a stranger in my home. I can't talk with him about my feelings or openly be upset. And on top of all that I feel so selfish and mean for just wanting everyone out of my house instead of having to look after everyone. Our 6 month old is teething so I'm getting next to no sleep, then having to put on a happy positive face everyday. Feel like I'm going mad. I love my H and want to be there for him. It's just such hard work I don't know how to cope
[This message edited by Frankie80 at 5:53 PM, December 26th (Thursday)]