I don't deserve this - not many of us do but for the past four weeks (since d-day) I've been asking myself what I could have done to make a difference.
Tonight I've realised there is not a single thing I could have done. I've been all I can be for him as he was for me, but it wasn't enough for him.
So that's it, I'm out. I feel used and abused, currently not in a position to walk away so maybe it's payback time. I sound so bitter and that's how I feel.
He won't know what's hit him.