Twenty years is a long time. Mine played with hookers as well.
Had I decided to stay, he would have had to give up the travelling asap. R is hard enough.
What you feel is totally normal for 8 months out. Don't even try comparing yourself to them, you are your own person, a faithful loving woman, and you will be OK whatever you decide.
[This message edited by FaithFool at 12:23 AM, December 29th (Sunday)]