Holidays are tough for us. In addition to the pain from my betraying my wife, we both lost our fathers during December, so there was already a sense of loss associated with the holidays.
Things have not been good between us for several weeks now, and I'm getting discouraged. Not so discouraged that I want to give up, but discouraged enough to make me pessimistic about ever having the sort of marriage both of us want. We haven't had any big arguments -- not even any small arguments -- but my wife has been very distant. I've asked her what she's feeling, if she's angry with me, if she wants to talk, and she just brushes me off. I'm not aware of creating distance from her myself, but I can be pretty self-absorbed and unaware of my own behavior, so she could certainly be feeling the distance from my side as well.
Just needed a place to say that, but feedback and encouragement (of both the gentle and tough-love varieties) are welcome.