I am currently having an affair. I have been married for eight years, with one child.
I had a LTA with current affair when we were younger. Started at 17 and at 23 I walked away. Neither of us were married but it was an affair in every sense of the word. I did not have contact with affair for 10 years.
About two years ago, my marriage was in trouble. We went to therapy to work on our issues. I reached out to affair. It did not take long for us to fall back into old patterns. He isn't married but also involved and just recently got engaged.
I am currently working on having no contact again. We cannot be friends. We aren't friends. We are two messed up people who had a chance to make it work and didn't.
My husband knows that affair is back in my life and found emails that confirmed his suspicions. This was prior to us consummating the affair and we have a don't ask/don't tell policy in place. We are not getting divorced but the current situation is not sustainable for either him or me.
I found this website and started reading this forum. So much of it rang true. I am addicted to a man who didn't and doesn't want me as his wife. I wish I could turn off my emotions but it is very hard and took a move across the country to rid me of him last time.
I thought I would sign on and actually get some tips on No Contact. I have started to clean him out of life. It has been painful but necessary. I really, really don't want to be the side piece when he gets married. I though he would end things when he got engaged but he didn't and he wasn't honest with me about it.
That is it. I feel a little better writing this down.
Married 8 years.
DDay: March 2012