So, the new years brought some triggers. The whole resolution thing. I smart assed asked him if his resolution was to finally be faithful. Then I felt bad for doing that. Well, new year's eve, we finally had sex after over a year and a half of no sex. It was enjoyable, but afterwards, I had this rush of hatred, anger, just raw emotion of how in the hell could he have done that with someone else...
Please tell me it gets better each time. It just brought back so many painful feelings, I'm not sure I want to do it again.
And then, of course, I am just angry about the whole thing and giving him the cold shoulder so we had this awful fight tonight where he told me I was unemotional (that was one of the nicer things said actually). I know I appear unemotional, but I am just feeling a lot of resent right now that makes it hard for me to be nice to him. How does everyone get past the resentment?
[This message edited by Crushed66 at 10:48 PM, January 4th (Saturday)]