Panic attacks are caused by stress. But, stress alone can cause what you're experiencing. I had panic attacks for 2 years prior to Dday when I thought things were fine with xwf.
I will say that you putting up with ws's treatment of you and stuffing, stuffing, and stuffing has put your health at serious risk. I am an RN and see patients sometimes in the hospital that jfo about their ws's A's or had been dealing with it for a long time and they were admitted with chest pain and all kinds of serious symptoms. This "epidemic" causes people tremendous pain, suffering, and adds to our financial burdens of health insurance.
I had no option but to kick out xwf, had serious symptoms, 3 years later still have times of triggers or new ah,ha moments as I wasn't able to move out of the home or area. Am much much better this far out. But, I have really been affected by the stress. My body has lost muscle, weight, immune system strength, and my mind is in self protective mode. I figured I changed forever.
But I can't imagine dealing with the arrogant look, talk, attitude, sleeping near/same bed, living in same house. For 4 years? I'd be dead by now. This adds tons to Dday after-effects.
So with that in mind, you must take care of yourself now. Don't wait. I highly suggest you listen to your body asap, 180 this person, drink lots of water, eat as healthy as you can and keep eating. I understand you've been staying for the kids, but you will not help them if something happens to you. The stress continues it's effects on you unseen no matter how you cope in the thick of things. I thought I was doing good my first year to survive but it still caught up with me. Granted there were some additional issues during the 3 years, but it all caught up with me.
PRNDL found a way to deal with the attacks. Good ideas. I will add go for walks outside daily. The anxiety medicine can help when you need it. Maybe go see your doctor for one that doesn't stay in your system so long to make you drowsy the next day.Just helps for the time these symptoms come up. But, getting away from the source will tell you the truth.
Don't want to scare you Deena, but please take care of yourself. You absolutely deserve it.
[This message edited by Thinkingtoomuch at 9:11 AM, January 6th (Monday)]