He asks " what is different today ( morning after the ugly truth finally open).,from last week? It was all over 18 months ago
What is the difference? Last week, I thought that the husband who I loved dearly was a honest, honorable, truthful partner to me. Today, I find out that the person who I thought of, so highly, is dishonorable, a liar, and a betrayer. Today I know that while professing his love to me, he was holding a dirty secret about infidelity to me. Today I know that he thought so little of my life, that he put it at risk by screwing someone else. Today I know that for the last 18 months, when I thought that my husband had "gotten it," was putting his heart and soul into our marriage and into our union, was being open, honest, and respectful of me, he was lying to me every second that he hid the truth from me. You just wasted 18 months of my life, further, you just shat upon it because it was all a fantasy of hope.
You gave me hope of truthfulness and then took it away by your lies. What do I want from you? I want utter and complete truth from you. I want utter and complete fidelity from you. I want you to treat me with the respect DUE to me as your wife, a human being, and a child of God. I want you to step up and be a man, not a man-child. Or I want you out of my life.
Try the above on for size and take in/let out as needed, if you think it can be of any help to you. (((hugs)))