I just broke up with my girlfriend of over six months tonight. It hurt me a lot, but I just did not love her. I told her that I did not feel the way I should feel after six months of dating. I cried a little why doing it. She did not. She looked upset that I was doing it, but she consoled me more. Lol. I am so much more of an emotional person since the D. I never cried unless someone died before. Now, movies and songs can do it. I do not know why, but it is a little embarrassing.
I thought that she would be more upset, but maybe I misjudged her. Maybe I thought that we had more of a relationship than she did. I thought that she was in love with me, but I was not with her. I always second guess things like this. I just am a little happy that the breakup was not long and drawn out.
She is such an amazing person, and I felt bad for hurting her. I wish things could have turned out differently. I really wanted them to. I wanted to love her. I feel dumb for not falling in love with a girl that is the total package. Maybe the next one will be the one.
Edited for spelling
[This message edited by LostandGuilty at 10:06 PM, January 10th (Friday)]