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 Harriet (original poster member #34543) posted at 8:14 PM on Saturday, January 11th, 2014

It took me a long time to get here, but I am so thankful to be out of my marriage. I loved him so much and I tried so hard to save the marriage, but he wanted out anyway. I was depressed and lonely - lost tons of weight, cried all the time. I wished I was still ignorant. Everything that all of you have gone through or are currently going through.

Now, I was reading in the General and Just Found Out forums, and to read with a mind totally unfogged by the emotional attachment I used to feel, I am so happy that I'm not in a relationship where I am always wondering, or searching, or reading into things. I don't have to check phone records, I don't have to be afraid to go out with him and run into one of his many OW, I don't have to worry that he's comparing me. Yes, I have scars and baggage, but now, living in the moment, it is so much more peaceful.

I wanted to say that in a response in Just Found Out, but I realized that saying I was so glad I am divorced is probably not what the poor folks in Just Found Out want to hear right now.

D-Day Spring 2008
3 years false R
Divorce Final 6/7/12

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TrustedHer ( member #23328) posted at 10:08 PM on Saturday, January 11th, 2014

Some of us who have been around SI for a while and have divorced joke with each other about that.

Specifically, how we sometimes have to resist the urge to post in General or JFO: "Run! Run! As fast as you can!"

Each person has their own journey, and even when divorce is the right answer, they need to know for their own sake that they tried to save their marriage "long enough". "Long enough" can vary from person to person, from 1 day post D-Day, to years of limbo or false R. Or even real R; for some, it turns out that the A really was a deal-breaker, in spite of sincere attempts to R.

Take care of yourself. There's a great future out there. It won't come to you; you have to go to it.

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phmh ( member #34146) posted at 10:22 PM on Saturday, January 11th, 2014

Specifically, how we sometimes have to resist the urge to post in General or JFO: "Run! Run! As fast as you can!"

This is exactly why I hardly post up there. It's so hard for me to not give this exact advice, and since I know it's not helpful, I keep quiet.

Life gets so much better, but I know that's the last thing that is helpful in JFO, when you still really want to R.

Me: BW, divorced, now fabulous and happy!

Married: 11 years, no kids

Character is destiny

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MakingLemonade ( member #41143) posted at 11:30 PM on Saturday, January 11th, 2014

((((Harriet))), I hear you! Counting my blessings of a wayward free life myself.

Me: 40's; XBS Him: 40's; XWS/NPD/SA
D-day 1: 5/2007- A #1; 7/2007 A #1 continued-R
D-day 2: 3/2013 A #2/multi-ONSs; 4/2013 A #2 continues to present
D: 7/2013 (25 yrs together; days shy of 22nd anniversary-GOAL MET!)
Our kids: teen & tween

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hyster133 ( member #17577) posted at 8:42 AM on Sunday, January 12th, 2014

It was probably for the best that she found another man. Five years divorced now and in that time, I've discovered that I'm a very good cook, totally renovated my house, and quit smoking.

Been on a few dates, but the sting of being betrayed still lingers, so I'm not interested in a new relationship, too old any way 55. lol

Liking my life as it is, and thankful this site pointed me in the right direction.

I've survived alot more than this in the past, my self confidence will carry me into the future.

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dignityintact ( member #32558) posted at 10:07 AM on Sunday, January 12th, 2014

Harriet!

Amen to your post…it took a while, but I got there….and yes, I often want to say to the "just found out", they won't change…escape from the hurt and craziness.

I'm so happy….I've just filed for divorce, and it feels so right!!! In fact I'm going to have a party when it's finalised!!

"Sometimes on the way to the dream, you get a lost and find a better one"

Divorcing - at last!

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newnormal ( member #21925) posted at 12:59 PM on Sunday, January 12th, 2014

I was one of those 5 year limbo gals. I wish i had found SI earlier. And yes, a wayward free life is the way to go!

BS 43 (me)
FWH 48
D-day 9/07

Dont retreat, reload.
"Pull that knife out of your back - and sever the fuel line to that bus you got thrown under" Bufffalo

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