I have been with my SO for three years now. During the first few months of us dating I had kissed another woman and flirted through texts while she was in another state. I haven't stopped feeling horrible about it yet.
I was not the one to tell her. Her D-Day was about 2 years ago. She found out and at first I denied it which was stupid. Over the past year I have told her all of the details. She says that she forgives me, but just does not trust me. I would do anything to gain it back and have been a picturesque boyfriend since then. We're still living together and practically dating, however I want to make it official and start a real life together once she graduates this year.
I love her more than anything and I was stupid and immature when I did those things. She gave me chances to come clean and I didn't take advantage of those. I finally did, but lost so much of her respect and trust.
We've scheduled a talk to finally discuss where we stand once she gets back from a trip in a few days. I wrote out all of my feelings, including that I believe caused me to do those things. I came clean to everything that I've done. I want to make a contract with her and make sure that she has access to full transparency from me. Any tips on how I can go about that or just general tips?
Thank you and god bless
