I'll just give you the simple facts and can anyone help me to save my marriage.
I was mad at my husband, so I ended up kissing a coworker on my husband's birthday. I wanted to hurt my husband, so I started an EA. I ended up making out with the same coworker 4 months later. Then I slept with the same coworker 4 months later.... on my birthday. Shortly after I realized I want my husband, is there an advice or hope for me?
The first and biggest steps are the hardest.
1. Do you plan to tell him? Can you live with the guilt if you don't?
2. Assuming your husband wants to stay and R, are you willing to do EVERYTHING needed to regain trust?
3. You need to figure out why you did what you did. Why did you want to hurt your husband. What was he doing or not doing, what led you to this? This is very important if you're going to have a healthy relationship in the future.
As you go through these forums you'll find a lot of situations. Some R, some D. If you decide to confess (always the best option in my opinion) then be ready for a lot of hurt, and a lot of really hard work, but it can be done.
We are here to listen.
Best of luck.
DDay1: 7+ years ago
DDay2: 1.5 years ago
"The truth shall set you free, but first it will make you miserable."
We can only give you our experiences and hope you take what you need to do what's best for you.
You're here, and that's a good first step. You have a long way to go, but it CAN be done.
I have read his posts, and now yours. From reading his posts, it seems like your family is a bit overinvolved in your marriage, but yu don't mention that here. Do you agree with that?
I really suggest counseling. You and your H seem to be coming from two very different places, and that's never a good place to start. A counselor may help you find some common ground.
I do hope things get better in your home. It sounds like all of you could use some stability in your lives.
Keep posting. The WSs here have a wealth of information to offer. If you want to find a path to a better relationship, the folks here have done and seen just about everything - and I do NOT say that in a bad way - and they are generous enough to share what thye've learned even though at times it can be painful for them. They have a tremendous amount of knowledge and compassion to offer.
BTW, you really should get your own account. This could get confusing otherwise.
It is counterintuitive really... the less we defend our well-being, the more well we feel. ~ Nancy Colier