This is in OffTopic so I am going to kinda dance around the questions that I want to ask.
You joined SI in 2011. That was just 2 years ago. I have to tell you that in the 4 years after I joined SI, I am not sure how I would have survived without anti-D. Like you, I have suffered from cycles of depression since I was young. I also have clear signs of when I am cycling into depression. However, the reason caused me to join SI caused so much turmoil in my emotional an mental health that my classic depression was completely washed away and replaced with desperation. I also was prescribed Xanax during this time period.
I was in an angry phase for several years. I do think the anti-d helped me manage my anger (but not reduce it...). And I actually started to taper off anti-d after my father died (and actually stopped taking them when my mother died), although my therapist did not think I should. Thing is, I did not NEED them to deal with a natural life event like an elderly parent dying -- most people's parents will die before them. I needed them to deal with a life event that was so unexpected and so catastrophic that I did not know which way was up.
You know the side effects for you when you take anti-d. If they are not bad for you (and everyone is different) then I think it would be worth trying them for a few months and see where you are. They obviously will not help with the natural chaos of raising kids (including the fighting) but they may help you deal with it better and not get as stressed and thus be a more laid back parent. The only down side of trying them, that I see, would be dealing with the side effects for a few months and then determining that they really are not helping.
[This message edited by Dreamboat at 8:39 PM, January 12th (Sunday)]