This is a friend that my BSO said is safe for me to be around and interact with. I know from what my BSO has said about her friend that she is happily in love with her boyfriend. I am almost positive that she meant nothing by what she said and my BSO agrees with me.
This is my first interaction with a female "friend" since putting up my boundaries. I was wondering if these feelings are normal with my first social interaction outside of work with a female or am I crazy? The other thing I was curious about is why I might be feeling so uncomfortable about this interaction.
All affairs are variations on a theme. No one has 'Beethoven's 5th' to everyone else's 'Chopsticks'.
Putting up boundaries for the first time is a tricky thing. Crazz and I went a little overboard but I don't regret it at all, and neither does he. He did get thrown into a panic if a woman would so much as ask him about his weekend, as did I. Things are so raw in the beginning, and so new and unexpected as Reconciliation is attempted in earnest.
Expect to be cautious and confused for a while. Err on the side of consideration for your BSO and safe, solid walls between you and other women. Things will balance out after a while.
Me: BW 35
Crazz: WH 33
Daughter: 4.5 Going on 16
No longer together
"There are times when our reality is nothing but pain, and to escape that pain the mind must leave reality behind." Patrick Rothfuss
First, I think, you need to find out why it unbalanced you. Was it the source? Are you unused to them? Did the outside validation feel better than was really warranted?
I do believe it was the source. She very rarely gives compliments and this one was completely out of the blue. I am getting more used to compliments, though they usually come from my BSO, so that may have added to it. I was thrown for the loop before the outside validation had even registered.
I think it's uncomfortable because you went from telling yourself that inappropriate attention was ok, to having no clue where to draw the line when you finally started trying to do the right thing.
Jrazz, you are so right! That is how I felt. I knew that my BSO's friend was stating an observation, but it was a compliment also. With my newly placed boundaries I was unsure how to take it.
I had NO IDEA what boundaries were.
So I went to the extreme at first.
I had rules:
No hugging men (We're in a 12 step fellowship that uses hugs as a greeting)
No personal conversations.
We categorized our friends (M&F) into FOM, friends, and everyone else. And had guidelines for each group.
I questioned everything, every thought every action, every feeling.
I analyzed every interaction I had with men. My motivation, what was said, how I acted, Body language. Even down to whether or not I made eye contact, and why I did or not!
I picked grocery store lines with women checkers. I had blinders on, would not even look at men.
At first I was so nervous about it I would not tell Chicho if I thought something was questionable, obviously this was not the way to go. Now if something doesn't feel right I tell him as soon as I can.
We tell each other about our days and what happened, who we interacted with. It's become such a habit it feels a bit strange if we don't do it!
I'm beginning to feel comfortable with my new boundaries.
I was just thinking that it's a bit like breaking in a new pair of Doc Martens.
When you begin wearing them it's so uncomfortable. You can only think about your feet and how they feel, where they're being pinched, where the boots are too tight.
They just don't feel right.
HOW LONG is it going to be until you feel okay in them???
But you keep wearing them.
And slowly they get soft, they conform to your feet, You never want to stop wearing them!
You wonder how could I ever have found these uncomfortable.
"Your secrets keep you sick"
With my newly placed boundaries I was unsure how to take it.
It is wonderful that you're questioning how to take it and pausing if you don't know.
If such a thing were to happen again, how do you think would be the best way to respond? Sometimes it helps to think of a plan in advance. With new boundaries, there will probably be a lot of situations that throw you… Just keep patiently working through them!
If such a thing were to happen again, how do you think would be the best way to respond?
Good question... If it was the exact same kind of situation I would just take the comment at face value, thank her, and go on about my business.
However, if it was someone that my BSO didn't trust or more importantly someone who made me feel uncomfortable, I would ignore it and the person who said it.
Either way I would be sure to talk the situation out with my BSO. It is best to talk these kind of things over with her, innocent or not.