Im so sorry you are going through this horrible horrible experience.
Week 6 huh? I remember week 6. I was getting ready to lose my career due to the pain and distraction. I was in therapy and heavily medicated. I did not know who I was. I had not been eating. I had not been sleeping. I begged her not to leave me for him. I lost all of my dignity. She would look at me and tell me "thats not attractive. To cry like the. If I were to leave him. He wouldnt react like that."
My point is, its too soon for you. Make no decisions. Start no wars with you WH and the OP.
Eat, sleep, and manage your fears, anxieties, and panic if any.
Take care of your babies.
You will get stronger. You will try to R. It may or may not work out, but in the meantime focus on you.
I no longer believe in R. Once its done, its done. Thats why you obsess. Thats why your mind is filled with the images of what they did. Its your body telling you to leave the bastard.
I know you are afraid, but maybe one day it will hit you. And you will see him for what he really is. A person who puts his selfish needs before his wife and kids deserves to have no one.
I am just now waking up to what a monster she is. The best part is now after 9 months her fog is lifting and she wants me back. Too late. Im not plan B.
Now when she cries, shes the unattractive one.
I wish you strength. Give it time. Build your strenth.
In the mean time. 180D him.