I want to ask if he smoked ..... sometimes he would get in the car after I picked him up and he smelled of smoke...when I questioned he gave some kind of explanation...never made real sense.... He once smoked way back and I caught him...this had nothing to do with As so could have been that...or not...
So I at 11 months out and R going well quesiton WHY I might want to ask this
I will know for sure, but not sure if that will make any real difference to me or not...or just make ME (not thinking about how it might make him feel here) feel bad because it brings up MORE questions like "where you smoking AFTER SEX?" not sure I want to really know...can I let this go...Is it okay to let it go?
You know what? I HATE having to have this internal debate off and on with myself for so many months....I hate that I have to think this....is is okay to just let some of the questions go because they don't seem to move you forward and you will feel worse to know it? Does it really make any difference now? And knowing and focusing on this....can I wait a few years to ask and it won't be so hard?
Or is it better to go ahead and feel worse for so much longer because now you know and have to deal with that too....Does this make sense?
I think many on this board have the get ALL this information...but not sure if that is ALWAYS a healthy focus...guess I have to decide for myself...no rush...I can always ask at any time....but opinions?
I hate this.....