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JanaGreen (original poster member #29341) posted at 10:21 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
So back in 2009, I was pregnant & went in for my 12-week appointment. I had already had two ultrasounds where the heartbeat was seen. The doctor couldn't find the heartbeat with the doppler so he sent me to ultrasound, and there was no heartbeat. Since we had seen the heartbeat twice and then it wasn't there at my 12-week appointment, he knew the heart had started and then stopped.
This time I'm supposed to be 7w5d today, but the baby measured 6w6d. Heartbeat usually starts in 5-6 week range. So since the baby is measuring within the six week range still, and this is the first ultrasound (ie, they haven't seen the HB prior) they are going to get me in next week for another ultrasound. Because the heart COULD start, theoretically. However, I am pretty realistic about my chances here. To me, this is just being extra careful to not abort a potentially viable fetus. I don't really have any hope. I mean, I'm not going to go home and freebase cocaine or anything, but yeah. I'm pretty solid on my dates. I was using ovulation predictor kits and I know I ovulated on Friday the 13th of December. Oh irony.
My doctor is out of town so I didn't get to talk to him - I talked to a nurse. I'm not in shock like I was last time, but I'm really disappointed. And I feel like a fool for getting my hopes up and telling some people.
Just fucking sucks. I know there's no such thing as fair in the grown-up world, but I keep thinking it's not fair. I was sure I was never going to get to have another baby and I get a positive pregnancy test on CHRISTMAS DAY. And now it's being taken away from me. I know it could be worse, and I already have one perfect child, so I shouldn't complain. But right now it just really sucks.
[This message edited by JanaGreen at 4:24 PM, January 22nd (Wednesday)]
MovingUpward ( member #14866) posted at 10:24 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
zebra25 ( member #29431) posted at 10:33 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
"Don't let anyone who hasn't been in your shoes tell you how to tie your laces."
D-day April 2010
metamorphisis ( member #12041) posted at 10:33 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
Oh jana. I am so sorry. I hope so very much that everything is ok. Sending you love.
Go softly my sweet friend. You will always be a part of who I am.
hurtbs ( member #10866) posted at 10:35 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
I'm so sorry. I'm thinking about you.
Me - 40 something. WXH DDay 2006, Divorced 2012
WBF DDay #1 9/2022 #2 11/2022
Single
gahurts ( member #33699) posted at 10:41 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
Sorry yo are going through this Jana. My prayers that the baby is ok.
"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indominable will" - Mahatma Gandi
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - Aubrie
jrc1963 ( member #26531) posted at 10:50 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
Me: BSO - 56 Him: FWSO - 79 DS - 23 D-Day - 12-11-09, R - he finally came homeYour life is an Occasion. Rise to it. - Mr. Magorium, "Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium"
ajsmom ( member #17460) posted at 10:51 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
So sorry, Jana.
Praying things will be alright.
AJ's MOM
Fidelity isn't a feeling...it's a choice.
"Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now - always." - Albert Schweitzer
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jo2love ( member #31528) posted at 10:53 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
sunandmoon ( member #10180) posted at 10:54 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
(((Jana)))
Thoughts and prayers for you.
sunandmoon
GabyBaby ( member #26928) posted at 11:23 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
((( Jana )))
Me - late 40s
DD(27), DS(24, PDD-NOS)
WH#2 (SorryinSac)- Killed himself (May 2015) in our home 6 days after being served divorce docs.
XWH #1 - legally married 18yrs. 12+ OW (that I know of).
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Williesmom ( member #22870) posted at 11:39 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
You can stuff your sorries in a sack, mister. -George Costanza
There is a special place in hell for women who don't help other women. - Madeleine Albright
deeplysad ( member #16590) posted at 11:46 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
(((Jana)))
Me: BW - I'm much too young to feel this damn old
Him: FWH - Midlife crisis with a pathetic porn wannabe
D-Day: August 2004; Lots of false R until February 2005.
sisoon ( Moderator #31240) posted at 11:47 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
fBH (me) - on d-day: 66, Married 43, together 45, same sex apDDay - 12/22/2010Recover'd and R'edYou don't have to like your boundaries. You just have to set and enforce them.
TattoodChinaDoll ( member #34602) posted at 11:56 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
I haven't posted about this...well, until now. I had a positive test on Christmas Eve. I miscarried my second angel in a year on January 8...2 weeks ago. Boy do I get how you're feeling. I'm praying for you.
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Me: 35
WH: 37 TimeToManUp
Married: 14 years, together 19 years
3 daughters: 12, 8, 6, and 2 angel babies (2013 and 2014)
D-Day: 12/21/2011
Confronted him: 12/22/2011
This is the most difficult thing I've ever done.
JanaGreen (original poster member #29341) posted at 11:59 PM on Wednesday, January 22nd, 2014
Shit TCD. I'm sorry. It's such a cruel joke - merry Christmas - psych, never mind. It's so fucking unfair, I'm sorry honey.
HFSSC ( member #33338) posted at 12:00 AM on Thursday, January 23rd, 2014
(((JanaGreen)))
(((TCD)))
I SO wish there was something I could do to make this better for y'all. I'm so sorry.
Me, 56
Him, 48 (JMSSC)
Married 26 years. Reconciled.
betrayedfriend ( member #19785) posted at 12:18 AM on Thursday, January 23rd, 2014
(((Jana and TCDD))) I am so sorry. 10 years ago Christmas Eve I had my second miscarriage in a row, it was devastating. I wish peace for both of you.
I originally joined SI as a way to help my best friends find ways of coping with infidelity, but now infidelity has touched my family much closer to home.
gahurts ( member #33699) posted at 12:21 AM on Thursday, January 23rd, 2014
"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indominable will" - Mahatma Gandi
"Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway." - Aubrie
unfound ( member #12802) posted at 12:28 AM on Thursday, January 23rd, 2014
((Jana)) ((TCD)))
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