Why is it so hard to let go? Today I met my cousins brand new baby and when I held him I just started to cry. I felt terrible and selfish for thinking of me, instead of the beautiful life I was holding. It made me think of everything I have been through with XWH and all the things he is giving up. What does anything mean without your kids and unconditional love?
I finally got all the paper work together to serve him CS and C. I will be sending it tomorrow. I hate that after all the years together NC is the healthiest choice for me. Every time Iíve broken NC itís just equaled cruelty and hurt for me.
The last time I sent him anything to do with realityÖ..I was unfriended/blocked on FB and so was my family. I donít even go on FB, my sister told me and it hurt. Itís all so incredibly immature.
How do you let the little stuff slide and deal with the child these WS have become? I really donít just donít understand. Itís like Iím doing this to him and I am not allowed to have feelings or be hurt.