I cut in high school and it eventually progressed into a suicide attempt. I have Borderline tendencies but was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder (wrong diagnosis)at the time. Medication and therapy helped me tremendously!
This is very serious! Please get help!
[This message edited by crazyblindsided at 4:51 PM, January 28th (Tuesday)]
In the meantime...to help deal with the cutting try to work on delaying the impulse. Try to distract yourself. When it gets overwhelming, go to the freezer and get and ice cube and hold it in your hand or grab a notebook and scribble on it with pen hard enough to tear the paper. But DO NOT CUT.
It takes practice to master these interventions. Sometimes it takes a good friend who is willing to sit on the phone with you for an hour while you are lying on the floor in a puddle while she talks you down. Do whatever it takes.
Make that phone call for help!
Keeping you in my prayers. For strength. For peace. For healing.
I have asked him to answer the other two, cried and begged (I know I'm pitiful). He has said over and over he will - but obviously that is not going to happen.
I guess this is my answer of how to distract myself from the continuing pain and/or numbness.
Once I learn to accept that he will do all the other thing but not this then I guess that will replace the pain/numbness.
Really I'm okay - as okay as anyone can be 6 months out. Thank you all for your concern, I just have to learn a healthy way to deal with this, but for now this gives me a little relief.
I am on Prozac and Xanax. I hadn't taken the second for about a month at the request of my doctor, but I guess I need to explain to her that I still need it.
Please, don't worry about me,