There is a phrase FWH used to use when he lied to me about something really really big. About something like this.
He has used it four times before. Once was on Dday. Once was when I told him I knew about someone he was friends with who had cheated. The other two times pertained to him but he convinced me they were nothing at the time.
I don't think so anymore. I think this has happened before. He is coming home tomorrow and we will talk about it, but so far he has denied anything. It has been so long that there is no way I could prove it at this point.
But I believe it. He said the same words. It is driving me crazy and keeping me from totally trusting him.
I wake up several times a night thinking about this. I throw everything pre-Dday into the same crazy basket at this point, but I need to know the truth about my life.
I need to know. This is just a vent I guess. Thanks to anyone who listened.
I think he has done this before.