What do you do about those nagging feelings that could either be something significant (gut instinct) or may just be paranoia (I've been lied to all along, how do I know I'm not being lied to now)? The one on my mind today is whether there really is NC with AP. H has told me that there was "love" between the two of them (gag), which he now feels was just part of the A fog, and that OW was asking H to leave me for her, that they'd be so good together, and all that disgusting crap. H swears up and down that he doesn't want anything to do with OW, that she hasn't tried to contact him, that he'd tell me immediately if she did, is transparent with me re his phone and email and social networking sites (which he's not been posting to since bc he doesn't want me to worry). H had called her and told her that it was over and that he didn't love her. She got angry and cried.
That said, it's hard for me to believe that she just stopped contacting him. H has told me that she was VERY persistent and text message records indicate this to be true--most conversations appear to have started with her. Even when he said they should stop seeing each other, that he felt guilty, she said she felt guilty too , but she never stopped. So my question is--why now? Why did she stop contacting him? Was it bc my H wasn't convincing before? That his words and actions weren't matching? Or maybe she/he didn't really stop.
I've asked my H about this and he says there has been NC and that's how he wants it. But it's hard for me to wrap my head around it. If I thought I "loved" someone, as she said she did, and I'm a really persistent person, would I give up that easily?
I feel like this is probably not a healthy line of thinking, but I can't seem to shake it. My gut told me that something was going on between the two of them but I didn't listen to it until it was too late, and I'm just afraid I'm ignoring my gut again... So confused!