Last Thursday, after I discovered a new email address and confronted H what this email address was about ... we had another feud! Not again he says. Yap, again. After getting absolutely nothing out of my new discovery, I felt weak, literally. Felt hopeless. Seems every piece of evidence I find leads to NO WHERE! There always seems to be an exit (in his favour). No solid proof. His answer to this email address was, "I don't know, I can't remember". Really, like you create a new email address for nothing.
Later that day, I demanded we go to counselling. He was hesitant, didn't want to go. He did not need it he said, I told him, I need it. Then he says, "you go". I was furious. He slept downstairs that night. Woke up the next morning, went to work. Not a word. Got home, and to my surprise he apologized and agreed to go to counseling with me.
We've been good since. Now, I must be loosing my mind cause now that he has agreed to join me in counseling, I am scared to go. I am scared that for whatever reason that going will stir things up and go down from there. I have read lots on SI and counseling is good for some and not so good for others.
Wanted to update my readers about H apologizing and agreeing to join me in counseling.
Another chapter ... we will go to counseling eventually.