Please do something nice for yourself. Read a favorite book or magazine, eat your favorite dessert, read the positive Recon stories in the link below.
When I was feeling super low, I would read every Stupid Pic Friday thread down in F&G. That little snippet of infidelity free funnies, helped briefly transport me to a brighter place. Where I could let go of my pain for a few moments and remember what's it was like to laugh.
Sending you strength.