Okay, so back during the first year post d-day, I decided to get breast implants. My friend had done it earlier that year and looked incredible (she still does). I, of course, took great pains to convince everyone that I was doing it for me, for my own sense of self-image, something I'd always wanted to do, nothing to do with the A, blah blah blah. You can probably guess that with hindsight, I now more than realize it was totally A-related. OW would send taunting emails about how men like T&A so why would my WH want someone scrawny like me, etc.
The surgery wasn't fun, but I healed on schedule with no problems. The Plastic Surgeon put in waaaay bigger implants than I had agreed to, so I've always been kinda peeved about that, but after healing and all, I wasn't about to go back under the knife again and figured I'd get used to them. I went from a B cup to a G
And afterwards, I did enjoy the new clothes, the new curves, I looked pretty hot But I also never felt at all comfortable with it. And pretty shortly after all of that, when the (false) R got more and more strained, I started to regret the money, the physical pain, and I also started to feel very uncomfortable with people knowing and looking at me differently. I felt very self-conscious when I dressed to show the gals off at all, so I started reverting back to big, loose shirts, baggy sweats, trying to cover them up (which looks worse, actually).
I've been thinking for more than a couple years - pretty much since the divorce - that I should just get rid of the damn things. Thanks to some inheritance, I can afford to do it. I asked my PCP during my recent annual exam for a reference and have an appt with that different plastic surgeon in a couple weeks. Provided I get a good vibe from her and like the before and after pics she'll show me and all that, I'm seriously thinking about doing it.
All that to ask if anyone here has gone through this "explant" and been sorry, been thrilled, been relieved? If you don't want to post, please PM me. It seems like a great idea. Just the physical discomfort I still feel from the implants and the ridiculously huge bras I have to wear, I can't believe it wouldn't be a relief to get them out. But I'm trying to take everything into account in deciding what to do. I also don't have to do it immediately, although I'm not getting any younger in terms of healing from surgery, plus I'd rather not wait until I *have* to get them out because of a problem of some kind.
[This message edited by ISPIFFD at 1:11 PM, February 2nd (Sunday)]