I hear you, SP66. I'm actually on Zoloft myself now and hate that it's come to this. Are you in therapy? Can you talk to your H about what you're going through so you two can come up with a plan of action? Maybe the two of you can even take some time off, even if it's just a weekend, and focus on your future and health? It's hard, I know. I feel hopeless and helpless and confused pretty much every second of the day but the only thing I want to be is happy. Not sure if I remember what happy is like anymore.