On Monday, I couldn't reach my fWH and after an hour, I "assumed" that he was out having sex with someone else. He has done NOTHING to give me any indication of this. It was just a trigger. I spiraled down down and am really in a funk. Mind movies again about hotel rooms, OW, the two of them having sex.
I am feeling very emotional again, after having some good weeks. It feels like intense grief. Is it me or is it him? It feels like something has died. Additionally, I am just not feeling good about myself, but exercising, eating healthy, etc. I have been reading Brene brown book. Controlling what I can.
I am struggling when I thought I was doing pretty well. I have gone to IC, but not recently. It feels like when I go I am a broken record and just can't accept, let go, move on.
Any thoughts, suggetions? All feedback would be welcome! It feels like something in me has died or is missing....