So I guess this is progress. I hate that it is progress in letting go of my W, but it is progress.
I celebrated a birthday this week, and last year, even though we were S we went out as a family to dinner. It was awkward, uncomfortable, stressful, for both of us. But I thought it was the right thing to do, and a year ago, I still thought we had a chance to patch things up.
This year I am a better place. I. I had the boys that night anyway, and decided to go to dinner with them, and then go see a movie, a nice guys night out. I didn't think it was even an option for W to join us, and you know what, it was really nice. I didn't spend the entire night thinking that W should be with us. I accepted the situation for what it was,and was ok with it.
Now don't get me wrong, I wish things were not the way there are, but I am have gotten to a much better place.