I just discovered that my WH has possibly created a new underground email account.
Its a google account that required an outside email for verification, and he doesn't know I can see that inbox.
It doesn't look like he confirmed the account, but I have no idea what the email address is or what he was doing it for.
He's away on business right now and I feel like I should wait until tomorrow when he returns, so I can check his computer and see if I can find any more info.
Also - I hate that this is the person I've become. I don't want to be a detective. I want to trust. And love. And feel safe and not hyper vigilant.
At the same time, dumping my WH and dating new people - how do you know if other men won't be similar, be untrustworthy, have some issues that will lead to unhappiness? I feel resigned to my fate in this moment.