He doesn't look at me when we do talk to each other, so why, after all this time and everything that has happened, and the crap that he says about me behind my back, do I still try to get his attention?
I feel so stupid.
I'm really sorry. I'm guessing this is a fake it 'til you make it situation. Keep pretending like you don't care, and eventually you won't.
I'm guessing this is a fake it 'til you make it situation
That's exactly what it is.
I don't have any words of wisdom for you. I just wanted to drop by and give you a hug. Your post makes me sad, you're such a kind person and you deserve kindness in your life.
Trust is like paper. Once it's crumpled it can never be perfect again.
It is because some deep, or not so deep, part of you still is hoping that he will finally "get it" and realize your worth and want to come back to the M.
That part of you that still loves him is so hard to put in a box and shelf. Because your love and feelings were genuine, it is harder to do what they have done to us, compartmentalize and betray.
This makes a lot of sense. Thank you.
I used to hold out and hope that he would work on the marriage and us, but as the years went on and the way he has changed and treats us that hope goes away. I guess at some point the hope comes back even for a brief moment.
Thank you dameia. I needed to hear that.