It's so interesting to me that we can see hope for others when we can't see it for ourselves; I just saw your kind response to a post of mine, and yet I know that seeing future improvement ahead for me doesn't mean being able to see it for yourself. So, let me use my own little crystal ball
..... YES, it will get better. And while you feel stuck right now, mired in an obsessive loop, do you have an IC to try and figure out how to reach a new understanding or phase? Can you ask your WH for help and does he listen? Can you do more kind or stress-releasing things for yourself?
Hang in there Ivy. You are handling a big trauma as best as you can. Part of that process may be this stuck feeling right now. But it is not permanent. (((Hugs)))