Me: Awesome - 35.... ummm, not anymore
This time last year I was a broken, bewildered, sobbing mess. I booked myself on a holiday to Bali for 2 reasons:
1. Its close
2. Every time I have travelled overseas I was cheated on so I wanted to force myself to face a phobia.
My trip was 5 nights. I spent most of those nights talking to him. Used up my Skype credit, trying so desperately to understand WTF just happened, why it was really over this time, who the F was she, what was he doing in 2007 when he was first F'ing her, how any of his behavior was ever ok, who the hell am I without him, why the F didn't I kick his sorry ass to the curb years ago, how the F did it become 'normal' to say 'promise you won't cheat on me this time when you travel', but mostly how do I live without the person I thought I would share my life with.
One year later and I am back in Bali. So many experiences to have - learning to scuba dive for Valentines Day. I find myself thinking WTF did I ever see in him. How did I think I deserved so little in life. Thinking back on the heart broken messages makes me and
My life is so much more peaceful now, I am in charge of my own destiny and happiness. I look back on what was and now find myself wondering how I ever put up with it.
I like this light at the end of the tunnel, its very illuminating .
There is still healing to do but that's ok, I've got this.
Strength, love and peace to you all.
"I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel". –Maya Angelou